I've been putting this blog post off for quite a while because I didn't want to deal with it.  Sometimes I don't like to feel.  I am a master compartmentalizer.  I put things in boxes all the time.  And then when I feel I can, I unpack the box and deal with what is inside.  This box has been unpacked and repacked many times.  Every so often, I take one item out and kind of throw it out there to see how the world will react, knowing there is so much more that I am supposed to unpack.  I lie to myself and say, you told your story, now you can move on to something brighter and happier.  But I haven't even told a corner of it.  There may be 5 people on this earth that know the totality of what's inside my box.  And I'm honestly not even sure if they have put all the pieces together.  But what I do know, is that it is time for me to use my voice and my platform to remove the shame and embarrassment that so many feel.  So here goes...